Chapter 1: The Question of Reality

Before we dive in, I want to acknowledge that if this article seems overly simplistic or too introspective, I completely understand. It may come across as “fake deep” or like the musings of a teenager trying to sound profound. Your perspective is just as valid as mine, and I get the tendency to prefer relatable content. I recognize that many people overthink daily, but for the sake of my own sanity and that of humanity, I urge you to keep an open mind.

And if you’re thinking of countering this with negativity, please don’t waste your energy on a random article. It's more fruitful to invest your time in what truly interests you. I might come across as disingenuous, but my aim is to share something that resonates with someone out there.

Continuing on, during casual conversations, I often get asked the same question:

“How has quarantine treated you?”

Typically, I respond with a variation of “crazy,” just to keep it brief. However, there’s no denying that things have been decidedly peculiar.

Lately, I've been noticing what seem like countless coincidences, leading me to believe that perhaps these occurrences are not coincidental at all. Others have noticed this phenomenon as well, often sharing their observations online. What strikes me as odd is how many of these coincidences seem to align perfectly in time.

Once I begin contemplating something, it often manifests in real life, even if I’ve never vocalized it or pondered it deeply before.

Life previously felt straightforward, like a series of simple routines that I followed from waking up to going to bed. Everything had its place, and there was a collective understanding of reality. My naivety spared me from unnecessary overthinking.

However, as I matured, those initial beliefs began to crumble, leaving me with my current identity, which revolves around understanding reality and its inconsistencies.

I often turn to fiction to gain insights into the world. The more I engage with it, the more meta my thoughts become. Life seems to interconnect disparate elements constantly. The deeper I delve into this concept, the more I realize that I've been conditioned to perceive life in a specific way. This conditioning stems from school and work environments that prioritize conformity. That’s a topic for another time. Recently, I’ve discovered a way to dismantle rigid routines, opting instead to embrace spontaneity. Reflecting on my past rigidity makes me cringe.

I genuinely prefer this more fluid approach to life. It’s disheartening to witness so many individuals fixating on trivial issues that hinder others. The ease with which people turn against one another is astonishing, and they often fail to recognize the irony in their actions. Everyone seems so eager to be right, oblivious to the cycle of conflict.

What goes around, comes around. I’ve embraced that philosophy for a long time, but it’s only recently that it has truly resonated with me.

I can hardly articulate the frustration I feel regarding the concept of time and its uncontrollable nature. Society treats time as the ultimate authority on everything. I know only a handful of individuals who have mastered the art of not letting it dictate their thoughts and feelings. I count myself among them.

Once I ceased to care about everything, my life improved dramatically. While there are still matters that require my attention, it's only to ensure progress. If I let go of everything and pursued my desires without restraint, I wouldn't last a day.

I've reached a point where I seem to lead multiple lives. Each version of myself is tailored for different people, and unfortunately, none of them fully represent who I am. This is one of the most frustrating aspects of existence. The only time I am truly myself is in solitude. Even as I write this, I’m assuming a role, maintaining anonymity to protect my other identities. Perhaps, it’s just another method for me to retain control.

One thing I recognize about myself is that I possess a significant god complex. I can't deny it, and while the definition of a god varies from person to person, I see it as someone who exerts control over everything, the master of their own universe. If we subscribe to the multiverse theory, perhaps there are multiple gods. While I could delve deeper into this idea, it would lead me off on another tangent.

My primary goal in life is to learn as much as possible—physically, mentally, and spiritually. It's all a test to determine whether I'm truly shaping my own reality. I intend to conduct extensive research to ensure I’m ready for whatever challenges arise.

How far can I go by living according to my own rules?

Chapter 2: The Interplay of Coincidence and Control

The first video, "It's All a Test," explores the theme of life’s challenges and the idea that our experiences may serve a greater purpose.

The second video, "The Test of All Tests Is Coming," discusses the upcoming challenges that life presents and how we can prepare for them.