Chapter 1: Understanding the Gap

The space that exists between desire and attainment is a source of suffering.

Want is like a voracious creature, an insatiable abyss that devours individuals, experiences, and possessions.

We collide with one another in our pursuit, desperately trying to affirm our identities through external validation.

However, no material possession can truly satiate this yearning.

We often overlook the principle of impermanence, donning a veil of arrogance.

Obscured by ignorance, we grapple with the essential questions of existence:

What am I truly seeking?

Who am I? What defines me? Where do I belong? When is my moment?

This roller coaster of existence can be overwhelming.

I long to rid myself of this weight, to liberate my spirit.

I crave to let go, to fade into the background like distant thunder or the gentle buzz of nature.

But the relentless nature of Want persists.

Even when I'm not hungry, I find myself consuming more — seeking out experiences, connections, and things,

all drenched in a metaphorical sauce, accompanied by fizzy drinks.

The cycle continues, with each moment demanding more:

“Supersize it! Make it bigger!”

I am left feeling bloated, both physically and emotionally.

I float through life, a caricature of my desires.

Who am I? What am I? Where am I? When am I?

Chapter 2: The Struggle with Desire

Do you long to relive the joy of wrestling from your childhood? This video invites you to rediscover that thrill and nostalgia.

The longing persists as I wait in this chasm of desire.

I scratch at my mind, seeking the source of my discontent.

I desire not the objects but the feeling of wanting itself.

This yearning is my suffering — the Gap I cannot escape.

When a desire is finally fulfilled, it is never as it seems; everything shifts and transforms,

leaving me questioning what has truly changed.

My very essence feels altered, as if I am just a fleeting thought in the grand scheme of existence.

The realization strikes me: my favorite experiences are cherished precisely because they are temporary.

Like an unexpected epiphany, this thought resonates deeply within me.

I am awakening, despite the stiffness of my joints and the weight of my thoughts.

No possession can fill this void; that is why I yearn so fiercely.

The Gap calls for mindfulness — a reminder to acknowledge the present moment and the feelings that accompany it.

What happens when personal desires clash with external expectations? This video explores the dynamics of wanting out of a situation while others vie for your attention.

The Gap is vast and unyielding.

The inevitable descent into darkness is palpable.

Yet, through this struggle, I can learn to observe my desires without attachment.

There is a beast lurking within this Gap, a relentless creature that demands my attention.

I feel a chill, one that mirrors the coldness of unmet desires — a longing for warmth, for richness.

Like a poem by Robert Frost, I recognize that nothing enduring can remain unchanged.

Yet I embrace the fleeting nature of my experiences, aware that they too shall pass.

As I engage with the world around me, I hear the soft whispers of wisdom.

The sounds of nature remind me of the simplicity of being present:

"Focus on what is seen, heard, sensed, and understood.

When you let go of the self, stress dissipates."

I am learning to be a mere observer of my thoughts and feelings,

allowing them to flow without being consumed by them.

Conclusion: Embracing the Journey

I am simply observing the beauty of existence.

Thank you for sharing this space with me. Your insights inspire my thoughts.

If you wish to continue exploring this journey, feel free to check out my other reflections on Medium.

For those interested in my work as a Mind-Body therapist, visit:

www.TheHandsoftheHeart.com

Until we meet again, fellow traveler.